Holding back in me
A swarm of emotions
Which sting from time to time
Releasing the poison inside
I Look at them
As if they don’t exist
As if I am fine
Convincing myself
That I don’t feel anymore
Love and things as such
Not knowing they might be real
They might exist
Those emotions once lost
In multiple combats with love
Perhaps it’s all in the head,
Feelings make you weak
And I am weakened by you
Every time you say something
I feel a storm inside
Which I try to discipline
With more force than ever
Cause you make my heart – beat!
Like it used to
And How it should
It is normal maybe
But I shudder with the thought
I Can’t afford to feel again
All the love the pain
‘Cause I am brittle
And I will break
So let it be like this
You are my muse
And nothing more
This is how I will keep you
This is how I will be yours!
Alka Pandey
The replica of thoughts.... 